Just for you

So….

needless to say, juju loves pictures. She has like zillion pics taken of sceneries, friends, of herself, even of… food :3~~~~~~~~

Well she has given me lots of pics… i would say around 80 maybe 100 :O

And of course ive sent a similar amount, i think its between 19 and 21 >_> Why, you may ask. Mainly cause i dont have pictures of myself until a while ago. Now ive taken a couple and even if its just me or just the garden. I think she enjoys it, so its reason enough to take it. Her pictures on the other side, help me to not miss her so much (<– bad grammar)~~

I guess that every picture she gives me, i get to know another side of herlsef, another angle… Makes it like if i was really there. Thats why i love pictures now, because i appreciate how valuable they can be. \o/

Thank you for all the pictures~~ o.<

Well it depends though, when it comes to stuff like games, food, even money, I don’t mind to share. Even if i have a few bucks but a friends needs it more than me, I’ll give it to them. Not that I’m Mother Teresa, i just like to help when i can.

HOWEVER, when it comes to ju its just ~_~ i dunno, i guess i don’t like to share her. Its just I got used to spending so much time with her, that i think that if she talks to someone else is cause she gets bored of me… even if i know in my head that she loves me, my heart betrays me. In the end is all lack of self confidence. Yes my dear readers I’m not perfect, hard to believe i know, but the truth.

Ill give you some time to ponder that…

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Ok, so now that we settled I’m not perfect, I think the issue is that i need to trust her more. Everyone knows (i hope), that trust is the basis of any relationship, and this isn’t the exception. However, we are talking about me here, even if i trust people easily, when it comes to putting my heart on the line I’m a little reluctant. Then again this is Daisy we talking about, what could go wrong? ;3

Hahaha, i have to apologize I’ve been ranting….

This is the girl I trust with my life, the one that knows more than me than many people.

This adventure has just begun, but again i look at the one that will accompany me through it and i can just say that I’m lucky she chose me.   :D

When people call me on the phone, they ask if im mad. Mainly cause in the phone im usually, "Hello, what is it?" not because im mad, but because I use the phone mainly for transmitting information. And after i have the information i need or the information i was asked, i say bye and hang up.

I know its rude to hang up too quickly, but sometiems i dont notice. For example the other day Daisy called even though I was happy i kinda was hurrying… I noticed only after i hanged up Dx so i obviously called again, cause I actually enjoy hearing daisy’s voice… I always say its like an angel, sweet and melodic (although she denies it at times XD)

well, that brings up the question how long should a goodbye be?

and i guess i could give long answer, but for me at least, is as long as is needed so that the people saying goodbye feel like they dont have anything left unsaid ;3 (in ppl that love each other anyway xD)

We need to shorten our goodbyes! (not really its just for our fans to think know we have long goodbyes, luckily they cant read this \o/)

yeah my last year of univ, its been 4 years since i started. And looking back it hasnt felt so long. I remember at the beginning of first year, I thought "4 long years still, I cant wait to finish". Now im in the last stretch, things getting tougher and i need to level up. *_*

Well i have one motivation that i didnt have previous years, my chocoju. Even tho i spend most of the time chatting with her, when im away, i spend all the time i can doing what i need to do in school. In my university, there is a big final test in the end. Mine will be around july 2008, but i stop classes in november. So i guess illl start working around January, since ill be busy in november-december. ;3

The thing is, I cant afford to fail that last test, cause if i do, ill get the second chance until end of December 09 = lost time and would set my final trip to jkarta at least a couple of months. So every day counts to my final target *_*

They say nothing is more dangerous than a jealous woman, i say nothing is more dangerous than a man in love ;3 (cheesy much? Dx)

did the same test as juju today, got a 25% male brain… means i have my female side… o:

¬_¬chaluis off

There are more than 6.6 billion ppl in this world… roughly half guys half girls thats 3.3 girls on the planet. And 33% is christian so that cuts it to 1 billion and roughly 50% are my age range its 500 million…. lots of girls, even if it was 1 million its still lots of girls…

So that takes us to the soul mate issue, thinking there is only 1 girl for me in that many ppl is like… depressing…

Thats why i dont believe in a one and only soul mate, cause it would be too hard to find her (or him? >_>)… but i do believe there are a few people that when we meet them, we will feel the "click".

Maybe im being too naive at this, since i lack experience in relationships… but with daisy, i just feel that calmness that always fills me. That click, a reassurance that she is one that shares a part of my soul, of my dreams and of my pains.

Even if she wasnt, I can assure you that she has my soul and my heart ;3

(another cheesy blog XD)

sorry my fans… maybe next time ill write about you. (^_^)b

a while ago a friend told me i was mature, cause he asked some advice about girls, and i answered to the best of my knowledge. But i dont consider myseld as mature, probably cause ive always related mature to boring. I know its not true, since some mature people can be very fun to be with (;3). But i notice that the more "mature" the people get, the less jokes they take and the more serious they take everything.

I guess a part of me wants to be mature, since i feel the pressure of everyone telling me to act like an adult. But I ask them, whats mature? Doing what others do? Dressing like others do (sensitive subject since most ppl say i should dress in formal shirts and pants since im already about to graduate)?  But i say, isnt how i feel most important? If i like dressing in jeans and T-shirts, isnt that enough?

Even if i say that, i do aknowledge that i need to dress appropiately if i go to an event like a wedding or a graduation, or to go to work (when i get one). In those situations i go by the motto: "its best to be overdressed than underdressed", meaning better to be too formal than to informal.

Lol this changed from matureness to dressing code,  i think cause most ppl relate how you dress to your level of maturity. Oh well, everyone can judege i guess, as long as they keep unconstructive judgements to themselves. ;3

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told you i would write 2 ;3 (2 am btw =o= )

well i started learning indo a while ago, and i realized its an easy language to learn, BUT you need to learn lots of words. The thing is im not so good with memorizing, all the time i try to memorize its hard, so i usually drop it. But found this site called quizlet.com which has lots of methods to help into memorizing, and specifically, i found indo lists of words. Hope that makes the learning easier.

I read though that i need to practice often so that i get used to using them and so that i can learn the correct use and remember spelling (cause indonesian has some weird spelling for sure Dx) .

Lots to learn, but i know it will be easier with Daisy’s help, and all the indo friends at irc. ;3

wake up around 9, but it depends at what time i slept… ;3

Brush my teeth, go down stairs turn on the computer and go to the kitchen. I prepare my cereal or something else if im too bored for cereal, usually eggs and beans or pancakes, nothing special.

Then i go chat most of the time (;3)  and before i realize, its already 1 hour before univ… and i need 1 hour to get to univ, plus getting ready time. Thankfully i always get there on time \o/

Then its univ…. im getting more and more bored on university, the teachers are sucky. Anyway the thing is i spend most day at univ, then come back at night around 9. Chat as long as i can go to sleep and repeat if needed.

One could say i have a pretty boring life, but this life right now, its the best i’ve had so far. And i know it will only get better.

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I have a house and in that house there is a garden, we have a big garden since half is like ours and half is from the neighborhood and we get to use it… (complicated) the thing is we have big garden. Now when we moved here the garden was crap, no trees, barely any grass, no flowers, nothing. So dad’s hobby became to take care of the garden.

Four years later, that thing is a freaking botanic garden ._.;;;

Dad spends most of his free time there cleaning, planting, fixin stuff…

When we moved here the first thing dad planted was som cypress trees in all the edge of the terrain. Now the trees are huge, so today he decided to cut the tips of the trees so they grow thicker and stop growing vertically. I went down with my pj’s since i didnt know we were gonna be doing that, and i was too lazy to go change. Short sleeves, after 2 hours under the sun… I started getting red >.<

I dont tan, mainly cause i cant Dx I’ll get very red, and after a couple of days. I’ll regain the milk color >_>

And with all the branches scratching my arms, i was left like a beat up version of a over cooked hot dog ~o~

this was tiring day, but i got to do excercise…. which i realize i need badly… so less internet ;o; just one hour anyway… not that much (yeah right..)

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so just to vary this blog… I wont write about you. WHAHAHAHAHAHA

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Not really, is sad Dx but i cant let our readers feel bored and jealous about us. So ill be empathic towards their feeling and ill write about… *drums*………. damn i already put the topic in the title…. oh well -_-;;; (I have to say i was tempted to write about you, but i wanna see if i can write something else ;3)

SO Internet, the big network, ultimate connection, infinite library of information, blah blah blah…  Well I have to thank the US for this little invention. The main thing i wanna talk about is how it lets us humans interact with each other, not only comunicate, but we can get to the point of living on the Internet. Addicted to the flow of information, the endless situations you can experience… Its a tempting offer for some ppl specially shy ppl like me.

One, you dont need to see anyone’s face. Two, no matter how bad you act there is little to no consequences to your acts. And three, you dont need to pay at most sites.

But we need to remember there are people on the other side, even if we can see them. What we do on the net has repercusion besides what we can see or notice. Thats why we need to be even more careful on the net, so that when we act, we help people, we help them grow.

Thats why my loyal fans, we need to act properly on the net. So it becomes a place of learning and growing, not of destruction.

-THE END-

*bows and receives the claps*

(oh i also have to thank Khaled Mardam Bey and !qT cause through them i got to be where i am right now, and i was able to meet the one person that changed my life, for good <3) ¬_¬ @ you know who