Just for you

Been a while since i wrote something… >_> mainly cause i lost my conn for a few days… Dx

Anyway, i wanted to talk about how a couple acts the same way after some time, since they grow used to each other. Well thats what i read anyway, however in my experience… Its somethign different.

Ive know Daisy, like really know, for 3 months i guess maybe less (7 776 000 seconds which is quite alot ;x). And even from the start, it was as if our minds had a link. Always saying the same things, liking the same stuff, knowing what the other meant or wanted, and many things more. It is as if I’ve known her for years and years, not mere months It made me wonder how was that even possible that two people that have lived more than 20 years apart can fit so well together, like pieces of a puzzles.

I guess this is what people mean by soulmates, finding that missing piece from your soul in someone else. It is as if every second is just to make sure that the other person is happy. I guess what im about to say may sound naive to someone outside of this, but it doesnt make it less true.

When i found ju i found my purpose in life, to make her happy, to make that other me as happy as i can no matter what… ^o^

-The End-

People say i have a serioues face. Some people that havent met me and dont know me throughly usually think im like militar type XD.

Guess its cause im always frowning, cant help it tho. Anyway, when they meet me they realize that I’m the opposite of what they thought, read: not serious at all. ;3 Even though some people think i dont take stuff seriously I do. Most of the time i joke about stuff, but when i wanna talk seriously about something i say it and go like on serious mode (not Krussy’s batshit mode xD).

Anyway, even though i joke alot, jokes and funny comics dont make me laugh. However, irreverent and random jokes usually do, i guess thats why i love Irc so much. xD

However, today i realized with you that it doesnt have to be random or weird. Just we being ourselves, i know you are laughing or smiling on the other side, and that makes me smile as well.

PS: i use too many commas ‘-’

Since middle school and a part of high school ppl made fun of my bladness/big head i thought i didnt care but i guess after so much time it affected how i looked myself. I know im not attractive but after so much bullying if you will, i thought as if no one could find me even cute or whatever. You once said that some words ppl say can affect us deeply, without they meaning to.

When you told me that yes, i was maybe a bit bald on the forehead (<— lol even here im in denial) but that even if i was, you didnt care. Know its not much, but it touched my heart. And i realized how lucky and rare it is to find someone that knows what to say when the time is right. That makes you happy just by their presence and with so simple words, can change your life and the way you live it.

I know it may not mean much to many people, but in the end what matters is that we are both happy. It may be crazy what we have here, but i rather have this "crazy" relationship than live the rest of my life hoping to get half as happy as i am right now, longing for the calmness and joy she brings me. Thank You God, for letting us meet.

^_^

A long time ago i sent you a song, called "When i see you smile"…

At that time i just thought of it as something i enjoyed, to see you smile. But today i realized its not only that i enjoy, i feel its like my job xD

Its something that i do, and everytime i succeed in making you smile. I get the reward i want, which ironically its to see you smile

So i guess im a good worker. \o/

Thanks for giving me your smile, your laughs, and even your smacks o.<

PS: sorry for short post or should i say enjoy your short post? xD

aku sayang kamu daisy~~

Last night on my Sales and Negotiations class the teacher discussed about how some salesman are afraid of success. She gave some pointers to know if you are afraid of success. I mean, everyone wants to succeed in life, but this people are afraid of what will happen if they succeed. This people rather be common folks, normal average persons.

The thing is, after several pointers i realized i was one of them. It all started since i was little, being an average student, afraid of being looked upon as a geek or a nerd. Thats why i gave enough effort to pass, being careful not to do more than was needed so i didnt become and outstanding student. I spent all my school years like that, giving myself the excuse that the school notes didnt matter. Then when i reached college i was kinda sad cause if i had studied more in school, maybe i couldve gotten a scholarship and save my family some money.

I said to myself - What can i do now? since i didnt get any scholarships i dont need to study - or something along those lines. So that way i kept myself without pressure living a "light" life. Now in my last year i realize that i was just making excuses. I was afraid of the burden and the responsibility that i had to have. Now that i have Ju, i realize how much time i wasted, how many excuses i made up just to be burden-free. Even if she says she is becoming lazy, her working and desire to work and help others showed me the way. She is not perfect, i know it, but she was the spark that has made me want to move on. To succeed ill have to work very hard and now I not only have to work for myself, but for us.

And im fine with it. I want to give her the happiness she has given me, as long as i can.

I keep forgetting to pray every night i go to sleep. I blame my forgetfulness. But i want you to know Daisy, that whenever i think of you, which is quite often, i pray for God to keep you safe. Till the day i can protect you with this hands of mine.

Wow this psot kinda deviated i think. XD

Well thats it, thanks for reading. ^_^