Just for you

yeah… i actually thought i understood women… *sighs*

silly me…

First of all let me say i love women, not like a player >_>;;; cause I’m obviously not one XD

Even after thinking that, in way their behavior could be predicted, to know what caused what, why they did what they did… But sometimes, i learned, you can’t even pretend to know why women act they way they do. Its just in their nature to be… for lack of a better word, random. You cant predict what a woman will do, i think not even a woman knows what they’ll do next. It is as if i threw a 2 sided coin in the middle of a hurricane… with one side being the most sweet angel you’ve met, and the other being Hitler with a serious andropause (male menopause) syndrome xD

At first i thought it was horrible, for years i branded woman as incomprehensible beings that wanted to destroy all men. But after all this years i realize that same randomness, those changes of mood… That alone makes hanging out/befriending women a really fun adventure…

And now to the one woman thats the topic of all (most) of my posts… My chocoju… Un/Fortunately even my juju suffers from this ailment. Yes sometimes i don’t even know whats going on, and i don’t think distance helps either. But its all part of the package i guess. She is who she is, because she is a woman (fortunately otherwise i would be gay ;x)… And i love her as a whole, with randomness, mood flipping, alter egos, etc.  o.< We all have flaws, women more than men, but hey, nobody is perfect.  :3

*waits all the unavoidable attacks* /o\

As an end note, i will like to apologize for my serious lack of writing skills. However, I promise i will improve… Also wish me luck with my studies of indo o/~~

Thanks for reading.

My major is Business Administration, but my specialization is marketing, meaning 50% BA and 50% marketing. When i chose my career +4 years ago i just decided on that cause… thought it would be fun xD

Because in movies and stuff you always saw this guys who were so relaxed, yet creative and stuff. I wasn’t guided from that though. I just wanted a career that, as a friend said, would allow me to do almost everything. Meaning that i could work wherever i wanted, since I didn’t like the idea that all my working life was decided for what i chose when i was 18. xD Now i know of course that what you study isnt necesarilly what youll do all your life :3

I like marketing though, cause it gives you tools to know what people want or what they are thinking (in a business sort of way). The problems is… >_> that im bad with social stuff Dx;;;;

I am shy with new people, and dont react well against new stuff >_>;;; So yeah, have lots of work to do if I wanna do business in general. But i guess if there is will to do things, then there is way *_*

Its really funny thinking how juju hates marketing in general and i love it xD Guess we had to disagree at something ;x

And for all of you that are in marketing and think you chose wrongly, try to remember that marketing has so many aspects that if you arent good in one, you can always shift to an aspect that is more in tune with your abilities

Thanks for reading o/

Ive met countless people throughout my short life, that think or say that they are ugly/unattractive. Even though sometimes i agree /o\ sometimes i think people just have wrong perceptions of themselves. Unfortunately, i am/was one of them xD was cause… since i met ju, ive felt different about myself. It is not only the self esteem boost of having such an awesome woman as partner, its the fact that sometimes just a reassuring word can make us happy.

I still dont think im handsome, but i also dont care. Because the only person that whose opinion really matter to me (not to offend anyone), thinks that im … to say it simple, "ok".  :3

However, she doesnt think the same about herself… And it confuses me more than anything else, cause I really really believe she is one of the most pretty girls ive seen. yes she has flaws… but if she didnt, she wouldnnt be human =O (thinks a bit about ROBO-JU2000)….

I guess what i try to say with all this ranting is that, beauty is really in the eyes of the beholder (and trends and culture affect a little bit). So whoever thinks they arent pretty, have comfort that someone out there thinks you are. I know i found that someone…

^o^

I live in Guatemala. One of Latin America’s worst countries to live in, violence wise. Corruption is also so high, the president of 8 years ago is still in Mexico after the biggest theft of money in the history of the country. I got robbed 1 day before my birthday last december, my future bro in law was kidnapped 1 week ago.

But beside all that, I still love my country. I try not to focus on the bad stuff i guess, just enjoy the good things that are around me. (and be careful not to get robbed/killed/kidnapped >_>;;;)

But yeah, the place we live is as good as we make it.

So WHEN i live in indo, i wont care if its crowded, polluted, dangerous or whatever. I will have the thing i care the most, everything else will just fit together on its own. Probably im being naive again…. but i prefer that to the "realistic/pesimistic" way of thinking D:

I also like to think that with work, whatever place im in, can become a better place. I wont just hope it improves, I’ll try to improve it. Cause if 10% of indo is like the few indo persons i know, i tell you indonesia has alot of hope :3

Thanks for reading.

indo (and ju ;3) wait for me! o////// (calfobunshin? ;o)

And im not refering K… >_>;

Guys in general are less in touch with their feelings, that sucks :/

how are we supposed to interact with women, when we cant understand? I’ve heard people say that there are guys that are more "in touch with their feminine side". Which normally would make me think "he is gay" >_>; … Obviously not what it is, after a while of being with Dai, i get more emotional? >_>;;;

That is super hard to do, seing as i WAS so unemotional before her D: now its like if she cries, i cry *hears his reputation crumble*

But yeah, hopefully if there is love, helps us guy get in tune with what our girl is thinking. Some people say that guys also tend to get in touch with "that time of the month". In our specific case…. its true *hears the last of his reputation vanish in the wind*

But yeah, hurray for synched feelings that help woman and man understand better, making life soooo much easier (for the guy, girls always have it easy D:)

*runs before the 99.99% of his readers (girls) slap him*

o/~~~~

freedom~~

So three weeks ago i started on my interships, that are 160 hours total. I have 60 hours so far D:
Well since i started its been day after day of waking up at 5.30 or 6 am so that i reach internship place at 8 am…
That waking up time means less sleep time, which means less time to chat with Dai..

Before internship we kinda agreed we needed to chat less, so that we could focus more on the outside world xD
Well now that we were "forced" to less chat, cause of her work and cause of my internship i realize how naive that less chat time idea was. Its been day after day of being emo, feeling lost, like im missing something…

Guess in the end i grew to accostumed of have her day after day… sometimes chat for 8 hours straight… and being it shorten to 2 hours a day sometimes… its just depressing T_T

Good thing is i have internet at internship place, so its kinda ok… i know im supposed to be working, but i wont be able to work if i am emo right? =X

But yesterday we had a (as juju calls it) old times day… xD
which basically is me and her talking for longgg time, until the real world called (bed for her, univ for me)… abd i realize i can only be happy when im with Daisy. Its like having a taste of heaven, and when you dont get it, its normal you get depressed, i think…

Well after all this im writing to say that WE cant leave away from the other, and im happy to have that… To know that whenever i think of her, she thinks of me… She really is my other half, age apart… souls are ageless after all :3

Thank you…
sampai nanti

When i went to IRC around september 2007 i was just finishing my 6th semester at university. As usual, after a long year i felt that i had grown. I didnt feel like the kid i was when i first entered univ. Well after all the events on IRC, and looking back now (cause of a log search o.<) i realized that i was really childish still. I would say that its the same feeling i had before and same feeling ive had lots of time, and i hope i keep getting it for the rest of my life. Because hopefully when i get that feeling it means ive grown, even if just a little bit.

When Daisy asked if how did she make me feel, in comparison to how i felt before, i gave it some thought and the only thing that came to my mind was freedom. Its a bit weird considering a relationship is supposed to be tied down to someone but i guess in my case, juju set me free. Because i was tied down to who i wanted to be not who i really was, cause in the end if we deny what we feel, we can never improve.

We deny our own self, and hide in the shell on the person we think we are. So, yes, daisy makes me feel free. Free to be the person i always wanted to be. Free, to see my flaws and try to correct them with the help of the people that love me. Free to be with the person i love, and try with all my might to make her and the people around me happy.

Thank you ^o^

This is my first post in a while, mainly cause ive been busy with my internships and univ, and the lack of internet at home for a few days T_T. Anyway, i wanna write how people dont know what they have until its lost. Yeah, this may be a  clichéd subject, but i wanna talk about this cause recently, when i lost my net access, I obviously couldnt go online to talk with juju. I know 2-3 days doesnt seem like that much time, but when the only "link" you have to your loved one is the net, it becomes very valuable. I guess i got used to being with her so long, talking on ym or just chatting at irc, thats why when i was away i felt grumpy. Why? cause i knew i could talk with juju all this time instead of being watching boring programs on TV or anime on the lappie, anything to keep my mind of her.

People started asking me if i was sick (as in health >_>) cause i kept reacting badly to everything people did D: I couldnt say: "I havent talked to my love in 2 days" that wouldve been kind of silly since we talked on phone and all… when we talked on phone it gave me peace, the calmness that always filled me when with her. But that soon was lost, as i returned to the world without juju. And let me tell all who are reading this (yeah all you 3 or 4 ppl D:).

When you find that one person, that one that makes you smile for no reason, that makes you want to be with them as long as your body lets you. When you find him/her cherish every SECOND you are with them, every smile, every laugh, cause it might be while before you laugh or smile with that one person again.

I say all this cause sometimes i took my time with juju for granted, that she would always be there and i always be there. Dont make the mistake of wasting time, its so valuable im glad I realized that now, and hope i dont forget it.

Sorry for the ranting….

Luis off o/