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Its so important! D:

Sometimes, after we have improved for a long time, we get used to it. We just get satisfied with who we are, what we know, what we have accomplished. You might ask - Whats wrong with being satisfied with who you are? And its not bad to feel proud of what you’ve accomplished but we get comfortable and stop improving. Without us noticing, we become estagnated and block ourselves from new things.

Yesterday i realized i stopped improving, got comfortable with who i was. All that without realizing that I was getting proud (more than usual), I stopped admiring new things people suggested and thought it was my way of the highway. The bad part its that its not the first time it happens. Guess if i have a defining trait is pride. >->

Remember when this teacher made me fail a class, without real justification. It was so hard for me to bend my head, and do the reposition exam. Didn’t want anyone to tell me what to do… to be forced to do it.

In the end, guess pride is the biggest enemy of everyone. It stops us from improving, from aknowledging our mistakes, from apologizing… Thats why improving its so important, so we don’t get blinded in our pride.

Long time ago, before i met ju… I would practically need to be "forced" by some strong event, for me to stop being proud… Now just some tears, sobs, and the comfort of my chocoju is all i need, to want to keep improving…

Guess this is what real love is, wanting to improve all the time, not for ourselves but for the other… Or its a big part anyway xD;;;

I have to thank you Dai, without you… I wouldn’t have such drive to keep growing… Thank you.. MWAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ^o^

I’m reading a book in this between-semester course I’m taking. The book is called "The Speed of Trust". Well you should buy that book >_>; I wont do a summary of the book though, I´ll talk about a specific point i read that reminded me of the importance of the little things. The little things aren’t important to "some" people, they are important to everyone. In the book its just a one page subtitle, but i think the importance of little things is actually quite big. D:

a little quote from Mother Teresa….

"Little things are indeed little, but to be faithful in little things is a great thing. God will use you to accomplish great things on the condition that you believe much more in His love than in your own weakness."

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When you tell your father/mother that you love them… not just say it, look them in the eyes and say it… When you don’t forget about someone’s birthday, when you give someone a hug for no reason, when you say thank you and please… Those are the little things that matter, those things make the difference.

Some people (like me) are forgetful… usually the first thing i tell people is that I’m forgetful, but even then some might take my forgetfulness for lack of caring. Even if i do care, people wont perceive my actions as caring but as uncaring. So what i have to say is… tough luck :/ We forgetful people have to work harder to remember those little things and to make them count.

To all the people I might hurt with my forgetfulness: Sorry, I will work harder to improve… sedikit sedikit…

Terima kasih… :3

In my university you do internships during 2nd, 3rd and 4th year of studies. They usually consist of going to a acompany and do a specific project. In my case there were (in theory) projects related to marketing. On first year this classmate and I developed a retirement plan for a bank. The bank recently broke .___. but i promise it wasnt my fault Dx

I have to mention that these companies we go to are chosen by the university. So we just recieve were we have to go and well.. go. On third year I went to a pharmaceutical company that was small (6 employees) and the university send 6 interns there >_>;;; Well in that internship i learned absolutely nothing, since the only thing i had to do was type data in a database ~_~.

This year i entered a big cement company here in GT. My project there was simple but i learned alot of how companies work, how to make a project, how to deal with workmates, etc. The thing is that even though i didnt do sooo much work, i learned alot by watching and interacting with other people at work.

Everything would be fine and dandy if it wasnt for one thing… All the time it took away from my chocoju Dx (even though i chatted from work most of the time >_>;;;) I mean the freedom of beinga t home doesnt compare to the stress of a workplace. I read recently that the work from home has been a great success in some companies. Mainly because people arent stressed about the work area, dont have to spend hours driving/going on bus to work, and many other variables that affect a person. Some think that people would be less productive, but its actually the opposite since people are more relax.

I guess thats what ju does to me… Relax me in every way and as ive said countless times, make me feel at peace… sooo.. thanks Dai :3

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Sooooooo……

Interesting topic >_>;;;;

Well contrary to what most women believe guys dont focus only on the looks of the girls. Yes its important in most cases because it gives the spark that attracts us to them, but its more than that. A woman can be "attractive" (because attractiveness is really relative) but even if she is, what a guy wants is to feel special. Some guys unfortunately don’t care about what the woman wants or feels just how they feel and want. This is not the rule however.

They say half (or all) of a man’s brain revolves around sex

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thats not (completely) true of course…

We want a girl that makes us feel special, that looks attractive to us, and that allows us to have fun with them (not in a perv way -_-;). This brings up the question then, of what is attractive to guys…

As much as in TV, magazines, runway shows, etc. Guys appear to only like girls with slim waist, long legs, ehhh ehhh nice "attributes", etc. Its not entirely true.

What guys want is a girl that adjusts to a predefined image in their heads, they have this idea of beauty that may be affected by external stimuli (like TV, magazines, etc.) but it cant be changed dramatically. Like some guys find long legs attractive, some find big thighs attractive, others want short legs, and so on… I think the reason that most girls with certain attributes dont get a boyfriend (or girlfriend :x) its not because of how they look, its because THEY think that they aren’t attractive. So as i said in a post a while ago… CONFIDENCE is the key… More important than looks, how we act is what attracts others, guys and girls alike. Thats why girls that adjust to the parameters of the era (slim, long legs, etc.) get more attention. Because they are confident in that they are pretty and they transmit that confidence to others….

So yeah, some guys look at girls as tools to their happiness… And some look for them as someone to make happy… I wanna believe i belong to the latter… Thats why I will keep striving to make her happy, in every way i can…

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Sooooooo……

Interesting topic >_>;;;;

Well contrary to what most women believe guys dont focus only on the looks of the girls. Yes its important in most cases because it gives the spark that attracts us to them, but its more than that. A woman can be "attractive" (because attractiveness is really relative) but even if she is, what a guy wants is to feel special. Some guys unfortunately don’t care about what the woman wants or feels just how they feel and want. This is not the rule however.

They say half (or all) of a man’s brain revolves around sex

>_>

<_<

thats not (completely) true of course…

We want a girl that makes us feel special, that looks attractive to us, and that allows us to have fun with them (not in a perv way -_-;). This brings up the question then, of what is attractive to guys…

As much as in TV, magazines, runway shows, etc. Guys appear to only like girls with slim waist, long legs, ehhh ehhh nice "attributes", etc. Its not entirely true.

What guys want is a girl that adjusts to a predefined image in their heads, they have this idea of beauty that may be affected by external stimuli (like TV, magazines, etc.) but it cant be changed dramatically. Like some guys find long legs attractive, some find big thighs attractive, others want short legs, and so on… I think the reason that most girls with certain attributes dont get a boyfriend (or girlfriend :x) its not because of how they look, its because THEY think that they aren’t attractive. So as i said in a post a while ago… CONFIDENCE is the key… More important than looks, how we act is what attracts others, guys and girls alike. Thats why girls that adjust to the parameters of the era (slim, long legs, etc.) get more attention. Because they are confident in that they are pretty and they transmit that confidence to others….

So yeah, some guys look at girls as tools to their happiness… And some look for them as someone to make happy… I wanna believe i belong to the latter… Thats why I will keep striving to make her happy, in every way i can…

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Thinking back i wonder where did i lost my innocence. I’m not saying that I’m a complete pervert. >_> I mean that there is little that surprises me this days. Before i felt really offended if someone lied to me or cheated. Now i still get angry, but its like I’ve taken so much beating I’m just numb to what other people do to me. And with every bad thing that happens to me I keep losing the will to trust in others.

This las week for example I had a reposition exam (trying to pass a course with a second chance) for a course i actually didn’t fail, when on the revision of my final the "teacher" kept making up excuses of why my answers were wrong. This had never happen to me before. Yes, I’ve had teachers that hated me or really disliked me, but in the end i didn’t fail those courses because of that. So when this happened to me I was shocked to be honest. In my naivety it never crossed my mind that someone would go to the extent of lying without shame. Then Dai said: "that’s the real world" or something like that… D:  Guess i just felt disappointed… Made me sad to realize that people could take something so… subjectively and childishly… Dx

I guess its part of growing up… Losing innocence, getting to know how people live and act, failing… All the experiences that little by little teach you, and help you grow. However I dont think because of that one should lose hope. I say that because even though I’ve seen really sad and horrible acts made by people, I’ve also seen the most heartwarming acts of kindness, those are the acts that keep me hopeful. People that give to others without search for gain, but just give because thats what feels right.

I guess I’m still a bit innocent, but without a tiny bit of innocence I would be like the rest of people out there… the kind of people that just want to help themselves…

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Whenever im with someone i know, either working, on the car, waiting in line or something; usually i cant find a subject to talk about. Maybe i can find some trivial stuff, but whenever thats over… its over, means convo completely dead and uncomfortable silence.

With Dai its different. We can just talk about ANY subject at any given moment. Family, our day, food, language, jokes, love, relationships, other pple (gossip? Dx ), sometimes even politics ;o, etc.  I guess thats why, when i start talking at 6 am, without noticing its 1 pm already and 7 hours flew by… Its a blessing and a curse…

A blessing cause it means, we passed the stage of knowing each other, yet we still learn new things all the time or talk about nothing in particular. Means its not just  cause we are getting to know each other, it means we can honestly spend our entire lives talking… IT means that whenever we feel lonely, we can remember our conversations from before and smile…

A curse cause it means the time we spend together passes by faster, which in turn means less time with each other, which is less fun and less joy of being with the other.

In the end of the day, i can only thank God… for giving us someone we can talk to so openly and honestly… with no walls o.<

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I have a terrible temper.

I get angry not that often, but easily… With that I mean that its hard to make me angry normally, but certain things, just tick me off. This things get me off balance and angry pretty fast. Yes, this means most of the times I’m happy and probably very relaxed and i will suddenly change my mood for apparently no reason. Most likely is that someone or something made me angry, and most people never notice, and so i look like I have the mood of a pregnant woman ._.(no offense to pregnant women ^^;;).

The thing is, even though I know about my flaws, like my terrible temper, my lack of will doesnt help work out this flaws to get rid of them. Its a constant fight between my desire to change and my reluctance to change. Because lets face it, nobody likes to change. After so many years fighting the same flaws, I’ve gotten tired of it. Tired of the constant fail to control, of the hurt people, of the "irrational" actions i do, etc. But I just cant get myself to overcome my flaws… After church today, i asked a priest if one should just stop focusing on saying sorry and asking for forgiveness, and just try the hardest to change, and ask for forgiveness later. Because in the end i thought that it was useless.

But he said - "It’s like going to the doctor. You dont go when you are about to die, you go when you notice you have the symptoms.".

I dont if its so easy to understand, but in other words, I have to keep fighting, but i can’t let all those mistakes accumulate until they are so many i can’t control.

Its a long and painful way this self improvement. Filled completely with fails and small success. And we will probably look down and think of giving up, but after what happened to me today, i realize we have to keep trying no matter what. Cause if we dont, we will never improve. It would be as if we were dead, no grow, no change, nothing. We have to strive to be better, to change for good.

Thats why, I encourage all of you to do so.

Improve. Grow. Change.

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